Tired...

Today woke up very late.. Went to the newly renovated market to have breakfast with my parents and went to the wet market. Dad asked me to go buy frogs cos want to cook frog porridge..Went to the stall..told the aunty...then i go behind the wall to hide..to dare to see how they kill it..peep out abit..saw blood..scarry...

Went home.started packing my room..move all the movable things out..then my dad called and say go Hougang Mall..Okie..this place..lots of the past..We used to go there for lunch after swim and have lunch..and just walk abt..hmm..Was having second thoughts abt going to Hougang..after all its his area..Might just accidentally bum into him yah..Should i say i'm lucky or unlucky that i didn't bum into him at hougang?! Worst..these days my bro ask me to go swimming at hougang pool..of all pool..Hiahz..that pool..its a nice pool..but but..guess its not a wise choice..SG is realli too small..Can't avoid places which we used to hang out or did activities together..Imagine i avoided all the place which we use to go? i think no more place in SG for me to go already..ha ha..

Came back to continue packing my room..70% done already..left one more shelf undone..I think next week must vacumn and mop again...cos my room is a dust collector..even when i dun open my windows..it still get dusty..hiahz..I dump lot of notes..replace those notes boxes with my shoes..Got problem..i got alot of bags..got so many lap top bag...dunno where to keep also..then casual bag..ha ha...i think i'm gonna dump them..no place liao..Just discarded one bag of clothes..i know i'm suppose to donate..but not time to bring down..so just put at the lift lobby...hopefully the cleaner will recycle for me yah..ha ha...

Okie..i'm tried...the bed is calling me..Got to wake up early...haven solve my problem yet..tmr must show something leh..ha ha..

Sparkle Starry Starry Night...

My human alarm woke me up at 8 am today..thats the usual time i wake up everyday..guess the human clock in me is immune to the time..Woke up before my phone alarm went off..ha ha..but looking at the time, i went back to sleep again till time for tennis..

Been almost 2 weeks since i last played..Kinda off form today again..Miss balls (thats so unusual of me)..back hand was bad hardly awy of it went across.. Felt grumpy during the lesson...I guess got to be PMS..Kinda feel strange these days..either get pissed with myself for nothing, or kinda angry with myself for the pass, or kinda feel ppl hate me cos i'm bad..just feeling all the negative feelings..Where's my bright side??

Met my mum for lunch and went to buy Starry Starry Night..hee..very beautiful..Saw it in the magazine and kinda love it alot..I'm not a big fan for such things..but when i see one that i realli like, i'll have intention of buying it. Of course, now that i'm working, i paid half for it. Thanks Mum! My Mum bought a solitier..the last time i bought her such things was when i did temp job after As. When i saved up a portion each month to get her one for chinese new year. I wanted to buy her this time round..but i'm realli very broke with all the instalments and loan payments..I think i'll need my tuition soon to supplement. Hope by next year i'll be more freed up in monetary terms..then can get a nice one for her.

Went to choir after that. Kinda weird. Many faces changed. Lots of new juniors whom i dun know...Didn't warm up and had to sing high note..well not that high either lah..just that not warm up..abit hard to reach initially. Kinda lose touch with my musical skills (if i do have prev). Sight reading slow down so much..at least last time i can still sight read out the tune without the lyrics..now...cannot...maybe is not that i cannot..but just that my brain is tired and i just didn't wanna do it mentally..well...

Went for dinner with my choir ppl..the junior didn't join us..ha ha..came home and i just went down to pass vet somethings..Well..i guess she realli enjoy herself tonight with his company..KTV till now...haven even ate dinner..hiahz..guess they will have dinner at tampines near his place..this is wat i call zhong se qing you..but wat to do..its him lor...

Cancelled my gym with Jing tomorrow..i have a feeling i kinda sprain my left arm while playing tennis (back hand)..Maybe i swing too much..now its reali pain...shall see how tmr..bed time...

iTs An OrDinaRy FrIdaY...

Well..the day started very well..Woke up early and went to the gym..cool...cycled for 30 mins..and of course did the rest..great work out. This whole week hasn't realli done much cardio..went for classes only..Kinda disappointed in vet..she's starting to slack already..not going for gym anymore..or always very tired..Well..of course lah..she got so much entertainment..Anyway..its her money and her choice lah..

Work was rather sucky...can't figure out much to solve the new problem..Suppose to print out the 65 K characters with the Hexadecimal codes..well...had to bring home to do..hopefully can figure out by monday...Boss gave me and al a pair of tix to watch SSO cos he can't make it...boring..we left half way cos the Zzzz bug caught us...had Out of Pan for dinner..the restaurant at raffles city..Okie..had sinful things..tiramisu crepe..ha ha..I bought the body lotion already from M&S..oatmilk and honey..smells good..gonna use it later..

Okie...my eyes are complaining already..looking forward to tmr's tennis lesson..

Riding On Clouds ~ Happy..

Great day at work today..nothing much to do.. just slack ard.. Came late and left early. Made our way to Aloha Resort. Marvey's chalet. Been more then 3 years since i last saw him. His GF, a china gal..very sweet and pretty.,.friendly also..one in a million type..

Had bbq..but we didn't moved our butts to bbq..when u are rich..u will be served..as guests of rice ppl..we were served. He actually employed ppl to do the bbqing..cool yah..first time go bbq ppl serve food. Anyway, saw my choir seniors..ppl like Charles, JL, Marcus, ZH been like ages since i last saw them. Hee..Charles look diff without specs..JL..not as shuai as before..JL..my first crush..still remember my JC dayz..ha ha...

Surprise surprise..he still remembers where i stay..ha ha..So of course..he force dMarcus to send us home..Well..like in JC when we used to go choir dinner..after that the 2 will take cab home..and of coz..marcus will offer to give me a lift since he gives JL a lift home also..Okie..in the car..marcus "interviewed" us on wat we are doing. We consisit of heh, jing and me..thats like the 3rd interview for the night..ha ha..

Well..conversation went on after heh and jing alighted..Realised that they have grown up already..Marcus..my memory was a very playful guy..not very good in his studies..now..seem very discipline with his job now..he was actually saying he won't take leave cos its his responsibity etc etc..i was surprise..ha ha...

Anyway..nice meeting them..of course he send me to my void deck lah..this time JL no need to walk me to my block anymore..cos he drove right to the lift lobby.. Dunno when will i meet them again..maybe soon? or never again..

Body Sculpt --> Body Ache

Wah!! now my arms are aching..my tummy aching..legs still haven start to ache..but i guess tomorrow will ache already.. Just now we for the bd=ody sculpturing class. Good one. I like the class. Much better then the Hip Hop..But this class more for tonnig purpose though cardio is incorporated in the work out.

The instructor..Shuai..been a long time since i see guys with such nice butts..Still remember how my frens and i in JC will look at guys butts and discuss abt which one is more firm..ha ha..The instructor one..confirm 101% gurantee chop..FIRM..Concluded he's a gay..Even if he's not gay also rather sissy.. After that, did't do any cardio..body cannot take it..Haven realli been doing cardio this week at all..hmm..i think fri morning have to go class without vet already cos she dun wanna go morning..gonna try out the yoga with my colleagues this fri morning..i think i'll go earlier to do cardio..ha ha..

Today managed to finish wat i've been stuck for a long time..showed my PM..and he was like..wow..u did it..thats wat i wanted exactly..so happy!!! tomorrow after meeting the consultant..sure got more things to do le..Okie..bed time..have to reach office early...tmr got bday chalet at aloha bangalows..ha ha..marvey's bday...Been like 3 years since i last saw him..ha ha

Ups and downs

Today is a very peaceful day. Had discussion for an hour plus in the morning..Finally i no longer feel like i'm the only one doing the job. Bad news..They just told me that i might need to go back to HP to do integration of the 2 systems. Hiahz..

I met Jing for lunch at china square..so crowded..but lunch was not bad. Kinda good to be back in office. Been meeting my frens for lunch..catching up with things..Came back from lunch. Got a surprise message from msn..ha ha..we chatted the entire afternoon..Oh..not him hor..my another fren. Nice chat..Ha ha..another programmer also..working 2 streets down from my work place. Prob will meet for lunch some day.

Came back right after work..no activity for the day. I thought the entire day will turn out good..But the moment i step home..i argued with my dad. "I dun like ur tone of speaking these days." I came home early to please them cos they said i always come home late..the moment i open my mouth..i get that remark..So wats the pt of coming home early. This morning was also the same. Tears just rolled down when i was preparing for work. I envy my frens whose parents realli understand them. Maybe thats one reason why i'm so hard up for love..so hard up for someone to be there for me. I appear to my frens as very happy and out going. Indeed, my happiest moments are the times i spend with u my frens. Every day i just hide myself in my room the moment i come home cos i dun want to go through the ups and downs. I just wish that my day will end happily and not crying. I haven felt this way for a long time cos i run away from it.

Try toking to them? i did..i ended up crying..how many times it has been like this..I'm tired...Realli hope that someone will hold me when i fall..Make me smile when i'm sad..Wipe my tears and cheer me up again. That was the reason why i treasured u so much and didn't wanna let go cos i dun wanna be alone to face the world again..I thought i'm stronger now since i'm older..but i'm wrong...

So Sad..I Weigh More!

Today had a light meal before going to the gym at Suntec..Suppose to attend the Hip Hop class..ha ha...Okie..we were there slightly early..walk for 10 mins and went in..
the class isn't very crowed..the instructor kinda cool.. a female..very hip hop type..ha ha..

Started teaching us basic moves..warm up and the chim part came in..OMG! so diff lor...i cannot coordinate leh..got alot of problems..shoes too much friction...hard to move...hands and legs get caught up with each other..terrible..slowly get used to it..then she added on more steps..then getting more chim..memory failing..cannot remember steps and moves..ha ha...

But finally managed to coordinate..but i got no hip hop style..not my cup of tea i guess..anyway..didn't feel worked out at all..so went to do the steps..this one..tough..i did for 10 mins and feel totally exhausted...(Expert: why issit that diff machines the effect on the pumping of the heart is so diff?). Supposed to be abt the same right?

K..i weigh myself..i sadly put on weight after the genting trip..=( will i have until the end of week to shades those excess off..Hopefully can make it...Oh yah..anyone knows what brand of body lotion is good??!!

`Grumbles

Its almost 310 pm..so pissed...so angry...so annoyed..with who?? with no one...but myself...WHY WHY WHY? i realli hate doing this..why issit that they get to go to projects which they like..but i'm stucked with this idiot character detecting thing! its so technical..how many times i told myself..just bear with it...but its getting abit out of control already...i'm starting to hate it so much when the coding haven even started. Wat am i to do?! !@#$%^&*(

I wanna the time to tick fast so that i can go home soon..to escape from the dread. On the other hand, i'm hoping that time pass slower..cos i can't seem to figure out the open source codes..Watever i do, i get stucked. No one to ask..no one to help..INDEPENDENT is wat i'm supposed to be. I HATE IT. i'm trying my best.. I asked for help..no one knows it. Wat am i to do? stranded on an island..with fruits hanging high up with no ladder to climb for the food. Hunger devours me..

No boat near the shore..no hope..no chance of escaping..i sit there helpless..with nothing in hand to solve my dire straits.

The End of The Holiday ~ Genting Trip

I'm backed!! Had a great long weekend over at Genting. The trip was kinda realli fun..Theme Park, shopping and more shopping..

The first day when we arrived was kinda bored. Apprently just left vet and me the entire late afternoon to spend. Her mum and aunt went to the casino. Well, her mum brought us in and its my first time stepping in..culture shocked? to see such a huge place with so many slots machines...so many ppl. I'm an idiot with gambling stuffs..Well, i believe that being an idiot for that has its own very benefits..hee..so i decided to remain as an idiot in the field..

That night..we went to the arcard to play..Well, i'm not realli a great arcard fan..But vet is..however, the arcard machines are horribly not well maintain..disappointing..Bought cakes and coffee and went up to our room..watched tennis and had cakes..that was much better =)

Knowing a person for years (since primary 1) and staying with the person is totally a different experience. Well..she's not that hard to stay with lah..just that i dun like ppl who nuah on bed for so long in the morning and somemore she knows she's the slowest..got to make up..not just the basic hor..its with eye liner..mascara etc etc..i realli wonder why need to make up so much..Even in the evening, getting her to shower is so diff..she can go to sleep without showering! OMG..i can't take it lor..

The second day day was the theme park day. Well, since we paid the unlimited rides, we took mosy of the rides which we can take..Roller coaster over again and again..Fun..We tried out the new flying coaster..basically lie down instead of siting up..fun lor..hee...Ended the second day with shopping..bought 2 pairs of shoes that evening..nice nice..hee..(its ladies shoes hor..not the rugged type..becoming gal liao lor)

The third day..Exhaustion..slept till rather late..went to have breakfast and took the cable car down to the Genting Lower Skyway..Goodness..so scarry...so high up ..then when look down..see trees only..I bought lots of cuttlefish..my fav!! hee...Came back and we brought vet mum and aunt to the shoe shop..They way they shop..is super duper amazing..in less then 30 mins..they bought like 8 pairs of foot wear..dunno how many bags...They managed to get 20% discount..so i kinda bought another pair of shoes also..was considering the other day..hee..Brow shoes with pink ribbon to match my pink skirt...Slept early that night..too tired..

The last day..woke up early..had buffet breakfast..they didn't had enought shopping the day before..so went back to the shop again..this time round, they bought kinda alot again..in like 15 mins...3 bags..and dunno how many shoes..i lost count! Hee..saw this pink bag..so i bought it lor..to go with my shoes and skirt..so pinky yah..so gal...can't stand myseld...

Okie..i kinda reckon i put on weight from all the eating..Well..tomorrow i'm going for class..hip hop..then after that gym!! time to work out!!!

Holiday time!

Yeah..finally the day ended..But with a disappointing ending..didn't say a proper bye cos i kinda made him angry..well..then again..he's a guy and should be more xiao sha abit lor..who cares..i didn't bother to apologize..like wat YL told me..Guess i'm learning fast..

Thanks for all the encouragment from u pals after he called me and ask if can meet..well..kinda expected that i'll have to see him sooner or later cos after all his thing still at my place. So finally it has been return to the rightful owner..well..

I won;t be in SG for the next few days..will be away in genting playing and relaxing..and having fun! Realli hope after this trip..everything will be fine..let the histroy past and let me move on in life..

After Lunch Effect (ALE)

Okie..thats it...i'm suffering from a serious illness called ALE.. Its a terrible sickenes. Last time over at HP. I won't get it if i eat slightly lesser..but back here, no matter how little i eat for lunch..i'll get it..Arrgh..

The Symptoms..very simple..the Zzzz bug will start buzzing ard u...then slowly it will conquere every part of u..leaving ur poor brain to fight for its own survival..Its a very difficult battle..half the time my brain will just lose the battle leaving me in an unconcious state for abt 20 mins.

I can feel the bug eating me up...my eyes are trying to keep open...my hands are trying hard to continue typing... My brain is trying to focus...focus focus..then again its not a sin to fall asleep right now..Hmm..maybe i realli should ..i've got greater thinking to do later on..to figure out the stupid code..can i just surrender to the bug?

TICK Tick tick...

Time ticks away today again. Did nothing productive at all..Early in the morning ZG told me that he's gonna have GF soon..well..i was like stunt..When i thought maybe i can get to know him better..he already found her..well.so be it..wat will be mine will be mine..

Cleared up my work..Been lazy..just didn't wanna install the compiler till like 430..no choice..die die must install else i'll be totally screw up tomorrow..lots of ppl came for interview today..Well..but i think none gonna join me in my project..how sad...

Met Vet at bugis..went to Mos burger to have dinner..and guess who i saw..PW and this other guy..she introduced us..His name is Daniel..new add on to the choir..Vet said he's good looking..i said..i think he just finish JC only leh..abit young hor..ha ha

I bought a pink skirt today..very nice i like..very sweet lor..cannot stand myself leh..becoming so girl..so not me..must be thanks to him lor..thanks to him to make me so hard up for love..to change myself..for the good? or for the bad? i think good lah..always good to learn how to be more like a gal right? hee...

Workout session in the morning tomorrow...time to sleep...

Time Just Ticked By...

Well...another day passed. As the time ticks away..i'm feeling older and older..Yet there isn't any great achievement in my life till date..The only achievement is i got my degree thats all..But everyone else has it too..when will i be able to do my masters? Hiahz...

Maybe i should have accpeted some r/s when in uni..At that pt of time i didn't want any r/s cos i dun want it to affect my studies till in year 3 when i started to feel that its time to start finding...fell in love, but was rejected..I'm kinda feeling lonely right now..to see my frens in love while i still lead a single life..

Always wonder how life will be like having someone else by my side. Guess its a wonderful feeling eh..Realli hope i'll find Mr Right this year. Anyway..finally decided to go back to my old lover already..Been spending most of my weekends with him for the past few years..I've decided to dedicate my week end back for his highness..Amadues..Gonna go for voice class, sight reading class..realli excited abt it..

This year gonna be a year which i'll change myself into a more presentable person...the change have already started..skirts..dresses..make up (i can't leave my home w/o the basic)..I wanna be healtier and prettier..Got to practice smiling..hee..

Time for my beauty sleep..hey expert..if i go gym everyday..issit bad for my body?

Hoping For A Great Day Ahead!

Morning!! Its 610 am on a monday morning..Yest i kinda rotted my day away. Played tennis and stayed home the entire day..Pack abit of my room but still in a mess..well..more packing to go..

Greatest achievement..packed my UK pics already..now all nice nice in the big big albums...well done! so proud of myself..Went to sleep early cos my eyes kinda red and pain.. ha ha...

Okie..great start of the day..going to the gym now..hopefully will reach by 7 ..work out till 830 am..shower, buy my coffee and off to work! Hiahz..nose kinda abit running and starting to cough liao... =(

Healthy Me

Amazing..i'm getting fitter each day!! Yest i went to play badminton with my gal frens at the CC at Circuit Road..Cool...played for 2 hours lor..with a short break in between..Been ages since i last played..the funny thing is that the racket to be seems so small..Vet commented..Dun play tennis style yah..ha ha..

But well..i'm a naturally good in such racket games (hee hee..) so once hold the racket..got all my skills back!! hee hee..Power right =) After the game, went home shower and had to go out again..Had family dinner at this restaurant called Kublai Khan at part mall...its a mongolian restaurant..The food is not bad..got my fav sashimi..ha ha..

I was dead tired when i came home..But gotta pack my photos..develop my china photos already..So to u gals next time yah..Also..i didn't go for choir today..I actually thought the dinner was 730 so still can make it..in the end my dad said its 630..and he wants me to be dress formally cos got guests..so mah fan..well..

I wore skirt on fri and yest...amazing right...the sun gonna come out from the west soon already..actually wearing skirts isn't that bad after all..but the shoes..hee..of course no heels lah..now wearing a mary jane shoe from Dr Marten's.. next week maybe will wear my mum's Hush Puppies mary jane..Borrow to wear..cos the colour very unique! hee

Have to run! time for tennis lessons!! see so healthy yah..

Think Tink ting ...

I just can't stop thinking. My entire brain and heart just consist of him. I just feel so sad and miserable. Yest night went to ECP to have dinner with Vet and WL. We were suppose to go over to his place to pass him back something. Called him but no reply. I know he doesn't wanna see Vet. But i realli wanted to see him badly last night. The "MISS" feeling was so over whelming.

I came home feeling sad. Then i saw him online..I told him how much i miss him. Its been so long i know. But i'm one stubborn person that once i like some one. There won't be a second until i'm fully over with the person. No one can realli help me to get over him. Its all within myself. Why issit that the person i love will never love me..Why issit always one sided? Am i realli that bad? All i want is just someone to love me as much as i love him. Is my request so difficult?

Lynnie called me. We chatted for a long time. Its a good chat. I was actually telling her abt me and him. How did i fall in love with him. How did things turn out this way. Lynnie said he's a good guy..He's somewat like Jo (Lynnie's fren)..No matter how much i like him.. is still a NO NO in the end. So i shoot the arrow to Lynnie to introduce me to guys. ha ha...

Felt like puking the entire night..chest got very tight and having difficulty breathing..Maybe i shouldn't take Vet's car anymore..hiahz...I've decided to joing choir again. I miss singing and prob the only way to spend my sat evenings..i dun wanna spend it alone...

Talk . Shopping . Gym . Food

Had a great afternoon at work. Meet ZJ online and we started toking. He asked for my number and next moment, got his sms..SG number and finally he admitted he's in SG. Previously we planned to meet each other in June when he comes back. This time round, he didn't wanna ppl know he's back for some reasons..

Well..So i'm gonna meet him for lunch later (friday afternoon). We have been toking the entire afternoon on msn and after work smsing..he's gonna help me burn some shows..cool yah..Well.. i'll see him for the first time and the last time till he's back again. tmr night flying off already =)

Oh yah! I'm going on a hols next week end...Going to Genting with my gal fren afterall there's no on in SG to accompany me either. =( Went shopping just now before going to the gym..bought 2 skirts and a black top.. My skirts collection building up eh..ha ha..

Went to the gym at abt 830..work out till abt 1030..showered and left..came back to my place to have prata..yest night also prata..tonight also..hiahz..all the calories burn gone down the drain already...hmm =(

Why Me?

I'm feeling like a devil right now. I hate to be doing this.. I hate to be caught in the middle..the feeling is surely not good. Both of them are so close to me. One is the guy i like and one is my best fren.

I can't seem to reject the guy's request of helping him get back the gift. I tried to say no..but a little sweet talk and i gave in..Why!!! why can't i just be a little firmer? But the disappointed or angry or sad look his face always just makes me feel bad and i'll give in..Reason simply i dun wanna him to be unhappy..Am i stupid? Is he just making use of me?

Why can;t they just meet and settle out the issue? Does a break up means that both parties have to return the gifts once given? I dunno..i've never been in a relationship...So mah fan!

The day peaks at the eleventh hour

Today was frustrating through out the entire day in office..Errors and more errors..hate it especially since i have the slightest bit of idea on how to solve it. Well, i'm well behind the date line..usually i'll be bothered by the fact that i can't solve it..but this time round..its realli not my interest..so kinda didn't really care abt the fact i'm behind schedule..

Waited for the time to tick slowly away and soon time to go! I went to watch Kung Fu Hustle..waste money show..not that fantastic..Anyway..more impt is the company for the show..ha ha..Had Mr Nice Guy with me..hee..Oh well..Mr Nice Guy is Sel lah huh..hee..

After the show..went back to my place prata shop and had chicken in prata..dunno wats that called..i just realised that everytime he does the ordering..hee..after that we went for a stroll..Suppose to call vet..but she sleep already..hee..i love strolling with him..been a long long time since we did that..how long ago? can't remember already..hee..well..had to slowly enjoy the moment of the stroll since we no longer meet so often cum things are diff these days already..

He send me to my place as usual..then i look out of the window seeing him down stairs saying bye to me..the old times...ha ha..wats missing out is the hugs...but well..not very healthy to hug each other now since things no longer the same...

okie..i need to sleep..bed time! happy..i'll sleep with a big smile tonight!!!

My Dino..

Dinosaur just left for Manchester. Ma ma and i went to send her off at the airport. Had light supper at the Swensens at T2. I'm realli gonna miss her...Didn't spend much time with her for the past 11 days..Didn't realli tok either..hmm...But i realli hope she will find her dream guy soon yah..I have a feeling its gonna be Larry..ha ha..

Hopefully she will come back in june and intro me to this cute guy (her jie mei) Philly..But she said he's dumb..wahahah..Oh.Dino's youngest sis works at the airport and she said that the cleaner is cute and shuai! too bad..didn't have to luck to see him..ha ha..totally cannot imagine that we are so into guys till have to look at cleaners..wahahah..

Hmm..work today was kinda depressing again..cos i can't seem to solve another problem..everything was smooth going till i got that major error..dunno where went wrong..debug till kinda tired..so gave up..Went to bugis to have dinner before going to the airport..

Okie..tomorrow gonna be a long day for me..got to wake up at 6 am..gonna go to the gym to work out! Prob i'll have a full breakfast and have fruits for lunch only...Sounds like some apple diet which my fren went on..

Love Songs..

Had a semi great day today..Went to office kinda slightly later..but still considered early yah =) Today solved most of my problems..Managed to get things to work. So at least i dun feel so upset and useless.

Been listening to my zen the entire day..listen to class 95..all the love songs..My fav..Robbie love songs..cool..and of course lah..love songs..realised that alot of lyrics realli suits how i'm feel. =)

Went to the gym after work today. Had an appt with the trainer. The session was not too bad. Realli glad that my trainer is a female. At least she can touch me, adjust my arms and legs to the correct position..At first when i heard that my trainer is a female, i was kinda disappointed cos usually guys trainer very shuai one lor..but now i'm kinda glad!!

So she gave me specific instructions to do my work out..seems like an hour won't be enough..so many things to do. Also, i think i'll be going for those work out classes next week. Told her i hate jogging..hee..she said the bike will do a equally good job..So as long as cardio activity, she said any machine will be fine..cool..but of course she encourage me to jog abit..cool yah..

After coming out from the shower, my right eye balloon..went red and swollen..didn't have my contact lens solution with me..so can't realli do anything abt it..kinda pain lor..Went down to bugis to meet Vet, KW and Clair..they see me eat cos they ate liao..hiahz..i think vet is realli into KW this time round. I feel that me and her no longer so close like before already..we tok lesser these days and well, i kinda dun tell her anymore abt my guy frens..crushes etc etc..maybe cos the guy whom i'm not fully over with is not a good subject to tok abt.

She kinda asked me over msn today abt meeting him. Then of course as usual..i'll say..why must meet..but she went, must lah..lao peng you (old frens) must meet..well, lets just cross fingers that we dun meet yah..

OKie..thats all for now..

Have You Ever...

Heard this song by Brandy on the radio while working..Dun realli like the tune..but kinda like the lyrics..cos it kinda express wat i gotta say and feel..

"Have You Ever?"

[Chorus]
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
[Chorus]

Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all of your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care
[Chorus]

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you into my world
'Cuz baby I can't sleep
[Chorus]

Another Sunday...

Woke up early today for tennis..Been 2 weeks since i last attended class..luckily i still remember how to play..not too bad yah..But my serving kinda lose touch abit..hee..Al skills improve alot leh..cool..soon we can play together already =)

Meet Dino and ma ma at raffles city for shopping and kinda celebrated ma ma bday..Went to the restaurant at the basement selling crepe..kinda taste good! Hee..next time will bring my date there for dinner (that's provided i've got a date)..

Oh oh..i got my pot of white eye shawdow already..hee..happy!!! hope i can use it soon =)Went to U2 to shop a while..and i bought dark green skirt..see..i'm determine to change to become more feminine..will shop for more in time to come yah..so next time when u pals see me..dun get a shock of ur life when u see me in skirt..hee..After skirts..prob i'll try to learn to master walking in heels..hee..now currently..the type of heely shoes which i wear are court shoes..no more then that..no strippy sandals..hee..

My left eyes kinda balloon now..kinda swollen cos i rub it just now..pain ah!!! i think i better go sleep soon yah..Oh..anyway..i hope to see him soon..but i realli hope that he's seeing me not to just make me happy and entertaining me..but realli to enjoy each other's company for that evening. If u realli feel that we shouldn't meet..then i just say NO yah..i guess i'll be okie..

=) Great Day!

Woke up early today and had breakfast with my parents..Then after that, i went to colour my hair..But but, blur me..i forgot to alight at the bus stop to change bus..in the end, i ended up in Yio Chu Kang. Why didn't i take a direct bus to Toa Payoh in the first place? Cos i was kinda rushing for time and i took bus 857 with the intention to alight after 2 bus stop..but i missed the stop..in the end..i had to take a cab down to Toa Payoh.. =( and was late...

Had my hair cut and colour today..Hee...now my head..bright colour!! Orange Red tone..at first i think it might turn out too bright..but ..i kinda like it now..The person ironed my hair after that..So i had a temp straight hair..My bro said i look not too bad in straight hair..maybe can consider rebonding yah..ha ha..but i'm broke..In the salon, i read magazines..then most mag says that non attach aries will find BF this year and the BF has to be substantial in terms of thinking and aims in life..Well..every year the horoscope says will get attach in the new year..but till now still not true for me..hee

Went to meet my parents and bro at taka after my hair do..I bought myself a pair of Dr Marten's shoes...hee..kinda like it..its flat and i'm thinking of wearing it with all my causal skirts..I kinda decided already..gonna give myself a chance to transform myself into a woman!! Gonna learn to wear skirts more frequently..Finially bought my bro belated bday and xmas present..Bought him a pair of Timberland shoes (ex leh..heart pain)..

Met Dino and Ma Ma at Tampines Mall GV to watch Meet The Fockers..The show is not too bad..but i feel is has not much substances cum its alittle vulgar..hee..Had a great time laughing though..By the time the show ended..kinda 1130 already..Tired, but still we made our way to Siglap starbucks..i had hot cocoa..hee..love it..

Oh yah..i was kinda piss off by Vet during the show..she send me a msg and said she can't meet on monday for gym cos she's meeting KW..She jolly well know that last monday, i already made appt with the gym trainer already and she was present when the appt was made..and now she's telling me she cannot make it..Its so last min..rather impossible to cancel appt..Dun think i'm gonna cancel the appt cos of her...seems like her everyting is him..he has the highest priority right now in her life i believe..so irresponsible to her other committments..F*** lah..watever she wants..

Okie..i got to go...Need to call Dino..she's sad..crying i think..hmm...

Self Pampering

Hmm..Dino put our aeroplane..i reserve the evening for her and she said last min she cannot make it. Well, so me and ma ma went ahead to meet for dinner. Had strong craving for jap food. So, we went to Sushi Tei at paragon..Pampered myself with lots of salmon..i love salmon sushi..hee..

After that, we went shopping at Metro..saw the tube dress which i wanted to get. Wore for ma ma to see..She said that i look nicer in the black one compared to the white one. She thinks the cutting is slightly diff and the white one makes my bottom looks fat..hee..she say is a good bargain..Was realli thinking if i should buy. Its on 50% discount..less then 50 bucks for a dress..not too bad..After much considering..i bought lor..kinda happy..

When to show ma ma the blusher brush which i wanted to get from body shop..she's asking her fren to buy for me..cos got 30 % discount..hee..after that we went to star bucks to have coffee..Drank my fav..Iced Latte..but this time with Irish Cream instead of my norm Hazelnut.Taste rather nice..mild taste...

Discussed about meeting Dino..i haven meet dino at all since the day she came back and she's going back to UK next tues already..She's one big joker..She told me and ma ma that she thinks the guy dun like her..then yest call me at 1 plus am to tell me that she's stress..dunno if he likes her anot..haihz..today in the afternoon she say he's over..but me and ma ma dun believe her words lah..

I went to the gym this morning again..Today even earlier as compared to wed. Reach the gym at 7 am sharp and exercise till 8 am. Did the tread mill today..ran like 1.6 km and i wanna die liao..maybe next time i should just cycle..Amazing thing is in the ladies changing room..am i too conservative or they are just too open. The just undress like that infront of the locker..undress as in realli undress..they dun even bother to wear lingerie after shower..they just go in front of the locker, remove their towel and start wearing their lingerie..I just dun understand why can't just wear in the shower room. Its not just one lady..but ladies..i turn around see another one..OMG..cannot take it lor..

I'm wanted to call him and chat. Called him ard 6 plus..but i think he was busy at work so cannot chat..told him i'll call him later in the evening..but but..i didn't in the end..cos strong feelings in me said that he will not pick up the phone. I think i dun wanna disappoint myself. Okie..i'm gonna sleep soon..tmr going to colour my hair..hee

FRUSTRATED!

I'm feeling so PISS.FRUSTRATED.ANGRY.all types of negative feelings u can expect..been very moody these days. Dun think is PMS cos i had that during my trip. Dunno why, i become very anti social. Dun feel like toking to anyone. Dun feel like participating in activities. Get bad tempered very easily.

Could it be cos i'm missing someone. Or cos i'm upset and jelous over somethings..I dunno myself. Been feeling this way since i step into this new office on monday. Could it be coz of the environment here? so many possibilities..I dun even know which is the root source. Maybe all contributed to my moodiness =(

I'm so tired mentally though i've taken a long break. Its like not enough. I feel like just sleeping and doing nothing. Sleep away all my moodiness...even better, sleep away all my feelings.. its almost 6 pm already ..dun feel like solving the problem already..I'm realli realli very tired. Can someone give me something which i like to do? something which i know how to do? why issit that i must be given such chim stuffs which i know nuts abt it? why issit so unfair? WHY WHY???

Dead Beat..

Today's a tiring day..Didn't do much actually..Dun know why just felt super tired..
Met Jing for lunch..and she realised i'm half awake..by 3 plus, i have hard time keeping my eyes open..Completed some research..Tomorrow got to start to try to code already..sianz..

Came home after work. No activities at all..Wanted to meet him for dinner..but well, he dunno wat time he will end work..so no lor..Thought i can sleep early..but my mum forced me to sort of the china pics till now..Eyes closing already..tomorrow morning have to wake up at 530..cos going to the gym..hee..excited again..ha ha..

Waiting for dino's sms to tell me if i'm staying over at her place..but till now..no reply..well..but tomorrow morning if i dun get her sms..then i'm not going to bring clothes..Hmm..thinking of meeting him on sat evening for dinner..not sure if he's available yah..ha ha..will sleep and think..maybe sms him tmr to try my luck..ha ha..

Amazing Me!

Had a full day of activity today. I woke up at 6 am and left for the gym at far east square. Reached there about 715 am and started to work out. Did the 3 sets of exercises as recommended..On each equpiment, the first set is always the simplest..by the time the 3rd set, my legs and arms are like gonne =(

Cycled on the bike for 20 mins..Thats the work out time recommended on the bike..Bike lose calories faster then on that tread mill (correct spelling?)..good sia..Anyway, is cycling some form of cardio exercise? After that, its abt time..showered and had breakfast before going to work..thought i was late for work, but not realli..ppl came in even later then me..hee hee

Today was a figuring things out day..learn a little new stuffs..but i'm still trying to overcome the barrier within me to learn the more techy stuffs. Dunno why, but i feel very left out in the office..Even during lunch, though i go out with them for lunch, there's nothing to tok about..they will just discuss abt their project..sad..
sometimes i wonder if it will be better if i just lunch alone after lunch time..Anyway, friday is coming and al will be back..hopefully everything will be better then...

Met Vet (as usual) and this guy (vet BF best fren) for dinner at this jap restaurant at starhub building downstairs. The food is GOOD! rather ex though..but he treated us..hmm..The bag which she carried today..She can carry it like nothing has happen to the person who had given her the bag..She didn't realise how much he was hurt by her. Well..i look at the bag and i said nothing. Asked her for the first time how many BF she has..she looked at me and said..play play got alot..serious one got 2..Prob if he(the buyer of the bag) didn't have known me..or that i didn't have mention anything abt KW, the two of them might have a happy ending..

Anyway..i called him on my way home..but he didn't picked up my call..i have a feeling he's avoiding me for some reasons..well..that's not within my control yah..

Feeling Sad =(

Today is my second day in the office..and well, i'm on for another project..This project..tough one..i kinda escaped from such work in sch but now, i have to face it. The project leader is a very nice person, he knows i know nuts abt the entire thing..so he took more then an hour to go through the concept with me. Very kind of him to rush back from meeting to guide me along.

I spend my morning upgrading a program to the latest version. Met Jing for lunch today..so happy..at least i dun feel lonely..I'm kinda not realli able to click in office thats cos i'm the only one on the project right now. Hmm..everyone seems to be busy discussing and i got no one to discuss with..Kinda sad...

Had discussion with my project leader till kinda late..then went to meet KW and Vet at suntec. Had dinner with them..well..i actually didn't wanna go but she ask me to go saying she feels weird with him..She's a very complicated gal when it comes to relationship..I envy her alot cos she seems to have many suitors. Maybe she's more bubbly? more open? anyway all the guys who once like her or till date still likes her are rather nice potential ppl. For her, its like so easy to make guy frens, but for me..it seems so tough..

He sms me..for a moment, i see the name on the phone and didn't recognise..cos i changed his name to another name just in case vet plays with my phone..Dun worrry k..i delete the msg after reading..hee..I left them half way through to make my way home..Then as i was walking to the bus stop, i kinda miss him..just feel like hugging him again leh..hiahz..well..tried to call him, but he never picked up the phone..guess he doesn't wanna entertain me yah..Well..

Feeling kinda depress right now.. Guess i should go sleep to sleep away all my depressness..got to wake up early tomorrow morning..going to the gym before going to work =) Hopefully tmr will be a much better day!

My New Year Resolution Started!!

Finally today 3rd January, i stepped into the gym (Planet Fitness) at 7 pm. Had a consultation with the personal trainer. Checked out how fit my body was..and guess wat my body is indeed super duper "FIT". My cardio is super duper "Good"..ha ha...then she tested out my strength..i did 15 push ups (that the most i could go) and i did 38 sit ups in 1 min..she was impressed with my sit ups results..not bad right...

After that she brought me round to try out the equipments..She brought me to those equipments which will tone the body..ha ha..tried all..and she said my legs are much much stronger then my arms..ha ha..She recommended some the amount which i should be doing each time so that i won't hurt myself or strain myself out..

After that, she kinda told me that i should try taking up the aerobic classes to improve my heart..Shouldn't do too much cardio at one goal cos i won't be able to take it..With all the test which she had done on me, she thinks i'm okie for aerobic classes..won't die in there..hee..by the time is done, its almost like 830 already..Me and my fren went to do one more set on those machines which she suggested..after that we ran on the track mill (is the spelling right?)..i ran just 3 rounds..and i almost died alreeady..this show how weak i am lor..hee..

I'm giving myself 3 months to lose 5 KG...i think should be able to achieve if i'm discipline enough..3 times a week...ha ha..since i got no BF...i got lots of time..so its possible i guess..Had a great shower after the worki out..had a nice cool shower..then we slowly packed out bags and left ttao china town point..

We ate the most sinful thing for dinner..MAC...thats cos most of the hawker stalls are closed already. There goes my hard work in the gym for the evening. kinda looking forward to learning more new equipments..hee...

Okie..my eyes are closing...ta

Boring Monday

Today the sun's finally out..hee.I'm back in office and the good news is that i won't be going back to HP alexandra anymore..and the bad news is that i'm on another HP project. This upcoming project seems a little alien to me at this pt of time. All i know is i'm suppose to convert some characters to other characters..how? i dunno how..ha ha..well..wait for wed when the project leader is in the think abt it..

For now, i'm bored..suppose to help out in another project..But the software i have is of an older version. So right now i'm trying to uninstall the old version and install the new version. But but..its taking me ages.. Its been almost an hour and haven even uninstall finish..trying to upzip more the 1 GB if files to my local for the installation..and its also taking ages to unzip..So bored..there's nothing much i can do now..cannot chat on msn cos it will lack my comp..cannot sleep cos no one is sleeping..arrgh...

Char won't be joining Vet and me later for the gym session. Kinda looking fw to it. Will be meeting the trainer..hope is a chines shuai ge who is single and avaiable. Most impt must be straight..not hee hee..Okie..YY and PW will be going to donate blood next sat and i think i'm going along also..been a long time since i last went. Hopefully can donate..ha ha..anyone else is interested?? Donate blood is good leh..so ppl, please consider k..for a good cause..can save lives..ha ha

Wah..its already 5 pm..and i'm still feeling rather full..i'm suppose to munch somethings now so that i won't be hungry later in the gym..but the banana leaf rice left me feeling super full still..Kinda weird..my team mates will be going back to HP tmr and here i am..alone back in the office which i dun realli know anyone..

I'm so so bored!!! actually i'm having a little of mixed feelings now..feeling of excitment and scared..i'm not exactly a very confident person..kinda scared to meet the consultant later cos i dunno wat to expect and also, i dunno how's the crowd like in the far east branch..imagine all the muscular man and woman stare at me like an alien cos i'm fat..scarry..

Tomorrow is Mabel's ma ma bday..Dino and i will be helping her to celebrate..hee..wonder wat should we get for her..i'm kinda feeling broke right now..Well..i'm thinking right now if i should get the tube dress..also, i kinda like the Dr Martin's red shoes..Vet say too rugged..but its me..i'm not so gu niang like her..i dun realli enjoy wearing heels..so mah fan to walk and run..ha ha..maybe i should consider after all it less 30%..ha ha ...

My team mate..Hmm..the more i see him, the most shuai le..today he came in causal wear..not bad leh..got dress sense leh..one of the better dress guys i see ard..We went to have breakfast together..ha ha..kinda weird, cos last time i used to be rather scared of him..but now, his attitude improved alot..Ah!! for singles out there...this guy is kinda potential..He's still single currently..ha ha..

Shopping Day!

Shopping..never seems enought for me..The things i bought from China for myself are all in a big plastic bag laying on the floor in my room..Then today, when shopping again..Well, not exactly my fault yah..Too many sales, and its kinda "wrong" if i dun get anything during the sale =)

Met Heh at Junction 8 to pass her the China gifts i bought for my choir frens..ask her to help me to distribute cos i couldn't go. Met Vet at Orchard station and went Sushi Tei to have lunch..Char joined us later on after much persude by me..hee..cos i know she doesn't have much good impression of her after some incident..Shopping shopping..Char bought a black skirt from U2 and i bought a strip shirt from U2 also..less 30% leh..cheap leh..time to replace my tops in my cupboard liao..they are getting old..hee..Shop ard in taka and never see anything nice..

KW came to joined us later on and i passed him his coke..A coke fanatic he is..Everytime i travel, will help him buy coke back..ha ha..After that when to have dinner with Vet and her parents..had steam boat..hee..nice leh...hot soup in cooling weather (actually to me not very cooling..still cannot adjust back to the weather here). After dinner, we went bugis and i bought 2 shorts from Bossini..not too bad..cheap and good..tried this tube dress from Daniel Yen..Nice leh..on sale..only 60 bucks..thinking of getting it for new year..hmm..but i concluded..end of the month then buy (thats provided they still have)..

Tok to him just now for awhile on the phone..How am i feeling? i'm feeling nothing..not happy and not sad...is this a sign that i'm done with him? hmm..i'm not sure leh..can someone tell me? Just to tell u..dun be too stress up over the issue at home k..i believe u can cope with it well..Dun follow the words of tomorrow come tomorrow see..Plan ahead and everything will be fine.

Okie..guess i need to sleep already..a long day ahead tomorrow and wish me luck in my new year resolution. I give u my word..I'll try my very best to be discipline to make my new year resolution come true! Planet Fitness!! I'm coming!!! Fats!!! U're going...heee...

Missing Romantic Jiangnan

Now that i'm back in SG. Realli starting to miss those places i visited. One very beautiful lake, West Lake (Xi Hu) in Hang Zhou..This is my favourite lake so far.. Its much smaller then Xuan Wu Lake in Nanjing and Tai Hu in Wu Xi. Tai Hu Lake is the 3rd largest lake in China..

Xi Hu is realli very beautiful. I agree to wat Xiao Huang said the night before we visited the lake. He said that its very romantic to walk round Xi Hu..A platonic frenship couple will become a couple after the walk..I do agree to wat he say..the picture is already so romantic in the day..cannot imagine at night with shawdow of the willows and the clear calm water reflecting the surrounding hills and lushes.. with couples in each other arms..couples kissing..ha ha...like wat he said..if the gal/guy is too stubborn..2 rounds around Xi Hu will be sufficient..hee..

Another place which i kinda like alot is Meijiawu. This is the place where they film "Cha Shi Gu Xiang Nong" the TV serial..The place is realli very beatiful. Also in this area, most ppl leaving here has surname as Mei..hee..the hills are filled with long jin tea leaves..

Shopping..Shopping spree starting in Nanjing when we couldn't takt the the cold anymore. Xiao Huang brought us to buy thermal wear..Cheap and good and of course i bought a jacket and a wool sweater.. hee..the next shopping stop was at Shanghai at Xiang Yang market where is bought most of my gifts for my frens..As usual, i had to buy presents for 2 guys..and i'm totally hopeless at it..by the end of the second last day, all my gal frens already have a gift each, but not the guys..ha ha

On the last day, we went back to Xiang Yang Market again..and after much searching, i bought leather card holder for them. The guys are so honoured, cos only got 2 of them, so thwy have a higher budget each..hee..their gifts are the most ex. ha ha..but okie lah..last day already and i still have a little spare cash still..hee..
Hope u guys like it..

Hmm..my impression of china has change totally. China is not wat i have expected. It's much better then wat my impression of it was. Kinda realli miss Xiao Huang the china tour guide. He's one guy who is a des to start a family..a very funnie guy at times and very serious at other times..A very responsible "Dao You" who will try his best to cater to everyone's needs..hee..China guy..not my cup of tea..wahahaha..

The last Day of 2004...

Finally i'm back in SG!! i went overseas for a year!! Left SG in 2004 and came back in 2005. My new year spend on the plane back to SG. Saw fire works display in Shanghai..the only diff was that i was in the sky when the fire works took place. So its a look down instead of a look up. Well, for once the fire works look so small..

Saw 2 diff sets of fire works..one is in Shanghai and the other..i dunno wats the province name..but my guess is Guang Zhou cos i know the plane will fly over Guang Zhou after Shanghai.. Its beautiful to look down from the plane to see Shanghai..The entire province lights up beautifully..The expressways are fully lighted and they are like never ending roads..all leading into the horizon..its a very beaitiful sight..

Ever experience walking at a temperature of at least 2 degree wtih very strong wind just in a normal tee shirt with a jacket(those type used in SG) and jeans? Well..i did..OMG! the feeling at first was SHIOK ah! then slowly it became terrible..my entire body just shiver..The wind was so strong that it hits right into ur face. So where did this happen? In the Pudong International Airport..I think nobody wanted to go throught it but we had to take a bus out then walk up the stairs into the plane.. Our tour leader was taken back by it also cos its the first time he experienced it cos all his previous trips was through the bridge..

Okie..thats all for the airport experience..Last day was good!! Our united tour group..all shopping fanatics set out to Xiang Yang Market in the morning to get more bags!! Well..Imitation bags..but wait..its A grade imitation bags..all real leather..then they just attach the brand..i didn't buy much yah..cos i'm not those which goes for ladies hand bag..ha ha..after that we took the MRT to Xu Jia Hui..Xu Jia Hui is like another town in Shanghai..this place is like the shopping mall in that town..Its huge..much much bigger then our orchard road..we just went into one of the malls..its already like our ngee ann city...and they so many of such malls..

The exicting part comes at 5 pm..when we had to make our way back to the hotel. Getting a taxi in Shanghai is totally a different experience as compared to Singapore. The word is "fight" or "qiang" (in chinese). U realli have to run for the cab..there is no such thing as taxi stand..we waited for like 30 mins for the cab after fighting with so many other ppl. Next, getting stuck in the traffice jam..in Singapore when u get caught in the jam..u just get so pissed off..and SG jam is considered nothing when u get stuck in a jam in Shanghai..Ur heart will just drop out when time is running out and u just get stuck at the same position for 20 mins odd..and most of the roads in Shanghai is like that.

I realli love Shopping in Shanghai..bought alot alot of things..lots of clothes (but wait..they can't be worn in SG!! wahahah.. mainly to prepare for my next trip to some winter wonderland.) I think i will wanna go back there again..maybe another season..Spring should be good time!!! Can u imagine how much things we bought?? we went with 3 big luggages...and came back with 9..awesome shopping!! wahahah...

Realli enjoyed the company of the tour guide (xiao huang)..will tok about him in the other blog entries..well..more to come..You told me over the phone that u feel uneasy when i'm away. So do u feel more comfortable now that i'm home?