Battle of the mind...

The stress level in my head is getting heavier each day..I'm starting to feel the addiction..The devil in me wants more..the angel in me is trying to tell me to stop. I know the more i give, the more i want in return which i do also know he's not willing..is the stake too much? i dunno..i love him so much..have so much feelings for him..All i want is for him to commit fully into the r/s which i know he doesn't..

He didn't message me last night or call to wish good night..well..i was feeling rather disappointed..called his phone but no reply..so in the end i called his house ... its so upsetting when he msg me this morning to say not to call his house again cos i disturbed his family members..well..i called cos i cared..anyway...its painful to give and to realise that the other party never did appreciate...all he's concern is abt his own personal benefits..

Can say i'm stupid..can say i'm dumb..but i'm willing to give all in this r/s though i know he won't at all appreciate..Can say love is blind...The devil is winning in this race..the moment of excitment, the moment of joy...will all this become a beautiful dream? or will it become a nightmare...