The Swing Night...

Felt super depress in the afternoon after i woke up from my sleep. Well, got to be the once a month mood swing (PMS). I'm actually looking forward to it as in the thing coming..Got to be nuts right...Its a good sign..but the irritating thing abt it is there is no proper disposal way in the office.. Everytime got problem settling the used pad =( sian..

Had very bad mood swing..dun ask me why..felt super insecured..saw him online, chatted with him a while. Actually wanted to call him but concluded, forget it..dun be so demanding..Sat in my room feeling super grumpy...had steam boat for dinner..didn't realli eat much. After that came back online.. then my mood became worst.. i sat there thinking nonsense..tears just rolled..felt so lousy and lost...

Wanted to call him, but decided prob later...hopefully he will call yah..just called him a few mins ago..he said he will call me back..hopfully (*cross fingers*). I hurt someone by saying something not very nice to the ear. Somethings are realli not meant to be. Though i'm not confident of wat me and sel will turn out to be, i dunno the future and can't predict the future, but at least i feel very comfortable with him. For him and for myself, i've decided to slim down. I dunno how much i can, but i'll try..

I guess the someone is very disappointed and sad. Since things haven realli started, better to remain as frens if he still wants me as a fren. Feeling abit insecure now..i realli hope the call later froom him(Sel) will end in a good note..