To Cry...To Laugh...

Do i deserve this? Did i bring it upon myself? I told someone whom might love me so much off yest..I guess this someone must be damm hurt. Anyway, i dun deserve to be love by him. I chose this path. To be back with him(sel).. I see a full stop in front of me.

He left me the last time cos he didn't wanna hurt me. Now, i'm back with him again. Yet so many things cross my mind everyday..We met just now...i wonder if we realli should meet. I knoe he's very nice to me and i know no matter how much i give, this r/s will still lead to no where. So why did i chose this path?

Maybe its wiser to end the whole thing now before things get out of hand and before i hate him.. There is no room for regret cos it was me who has chosen this path. There is no one to blame..Yet on the other side, i wanna him by my side for companionship. He's realli a great company..Maybe if we didn't cross the line. Things won't be as wat it is today. You(sel) told me that there are many better guys out there and i dun deserve this treatment at all.

Yes. I demand alot from the r/s. I know he's making an attempt to fulfil those demands to a certain extend. Yes. I'm very sticky and i'm an attention seeker. I realised this part of me when i'm with him. I didn't mean to..I know the consequences if i continue this "game". To cry or to laugh..Continuing the devil side will laugh so much...the angel will just bleed of crying. To let go, the angel will smile with joy but the devil will shed tears of hurt. I know he's someone very sentimental. I know watever choice i make, he will respect my decision.