Morning Rush.

The day started of well. Had a couple of calls from Char. Saw his message. He's doing fine again. Was pissed with myself last night. He was kinda moody and i didn't know how to realli cheer him up. Every little thing about him meant so much to me.

I left home about the same time as usual. Today seems extremely peaceful. There wasn't any bustling in my area. Everything seems quiet and slow. No morning rush..no one flagging for cab..the road was empty. Kinda felt strange. Like a saturday late morning just that its not so warm yet. The weather felt cool. Light breeze swept across my face. I strolled to the station feeling rather relax. Great feeling.

The station didn't seemed crowded. Kinda felt strange. I looked at my watched to see if it had stopped. The moment the train arrived, i'm back again to the rush hour madness.. The train seems to be so packed. From calmness i began to feel the stres again. Work work and more work.

Time to start working =)

Wednesday Morning!

Hmm...time seem to pass so slowly this week. I'm so looking forward to the coming week end. Long week end for me again..My bday week. I'm gonna be a year older...

This morning i went to the gym to work out...the session was rather good i will say. Did alot..i worked on my legs and thighs and also did the machine jing intro me too..i dunno wats the name of the machine..but its damm coolz..last time my favourite cardio equipment was the bike..now change to that new equipment le..hee hee..the more i do the more i like it..

One thing i notice about myself is that the intial stage when i start my cardio exercise, i can feel the angel and devil fighting against each other..as the heart pumps faster, the devil will keep telling my head.."Getting tired..Stop stop!" the angel will then fight back saying "Gal..u can do it...just pass this stage" So funnie right! Once i pass the 15 mins mark..angel wins..My body by then will be warmed up..heart pumping..and very shiok..like can ride on and on and on..ha ha...

Hmm...someone i still feel that i can push myself more...its not to the limit yet. Then again, i'm afraid that my body cannot take it =( anyway..times up!

Bluez...

The monday and afternoon blues sets in after lunch. Here i am back in the office again. Facing my laptop. I'm suppose to fix the problem but i'm just feeling abit nuah about doing it. Well..will get my hands on it again after this.

Swings are part of parcel of me i guess. But swings these days are worst then the previous times.. I also dunno why..hee hee..anyway...Swings just set my mind thinking in a negative side so much that the effect is so dramatic..The mind is so easily manipulated during this time. Each little action and word means so much. It tweaks the mind each time something had been said or seen. The mood changes almost instantly.

Its not easy to tell myself to remain happy and to block out things which i dun wanna see or hear. Somehow during each swing, the swing will chose to be open to the negative side instead of the positive side. Is this how human works? to remember the bad and to let the good pass? Reminder i guess are important. Reminder to take notice the good and not take it forgranted. Things happen due to a cause. Be it good or bad. I guess i should look forward to the good more then the bad. Wat is over is over. Tomorrow is another day to look forward to.

For some weird reasons..i came into close proximity with myself. Trying to understand why i'm feeling this way. I'm able to tell i'm in a mood swing now anot. Though i know i'm in a swing, i can't seem to control the swing. Emotions will just flood me. Its a weird feeling esp when u know its coming but there's no prevention to it.

The grumpy side or the devil is losing out in the race at work. For the angel hallowed me, i sit here leaving my last words to the blog. Balance is wat i'm in search for now..

Sensitivity.Emotional.Emptiness.Loving.Caring

The day started with sense of jealousy..The left over from yesterday lingered in my throat the entire morning.. The taste was bitter.. I tried to overcome the taste with lots of self consoling. Things didn't go my way. Miserable was all i was left with.

Contemplation to the gym. Mixed feelings as i pulled myself there. Workout didn't seem to go well..There wasn't balance in me. I didn't have a calm mind. The mind swirled with thoughts and imgainations. I wanted to spend time myself to get myself back on track. But i failed. I slam myself with each equipment that comes my way. Frustrated with myself. Anger lurks in me. Feels so empty when no one was avaiable for me to pour my woes out. She saved my day and me.

The tok with jing made me realised how he was there for me all the while. They both said the same things to me. But the power of jing words kinda enlightened me. The call from him after i left jing made me realised how much he cared. He was there for me all the while. Its something which i just left out completely. Jing reminder.."i should treasure the moment" made me see things from a diff angle.

The emptiness and bitterness vanished..I'm feeling light and happy again..The beatiful feeling of someone being there for u when u are down is realli amazing. To him and to my gal frens..Love u all so much..Thanks for being there when i'm down.. And i'll treasure the moments with him =)

Start of Long Weekend

Today's day 1 of the long weekend. Last night came home rather late. Went to have dinner with Jing and Heh while he went dinner with his poly fren..Shocking to meet so many ppl..First saw Mabel, then Gracie and her bf, Sherwin and his fren. Sherwin is actually Sel's bro (the eldest of the triplets) ...hee hee..Anyway, after his dinner he came to pick me up =)

Woke up this morning feeling abit grumpy..cos not enough sleep. Went to pray my grandma till rather late..Then went to Sim Lim Square to collect my bro's mp3 player..ha ha..then i saw my colleague with a GAL! wahahahah...anyway..after that we went down to PS to BOSE to try out speakers and hi fi..the set which we tested kinda not bad...price also "not bad"..hmm...its meant for my room...but abit way beyond my budget... =( see how lah...

After that went to carrefour to buy rubbish..hee hee..then came back to my place area for dinner..here i am back on my comp..Just check my office mail..not news from the client on the problem..guess later i'll try my luck and any how wack..hopefully can wack something out..Kinda of funnie..we didn't meet today..was suppose to go ubin with him but i couldn't make it on time..well..shall wait for him to call =)

Its Me? Its Him? Or Both?

Well..the questions seems obvious right. I guess it the time of the month again which i'm feeling extremely sensitive to everything..Him especially..Alot of questions will just pop up in my head. I will feel very insecure..I'm not sure if i'm realli in a mood swing or is our r/s beginning to fall apart?

Sometimes its realli bad to tok when both dun seems to be in good mood. Things won't turn out that well. Like wat my fren said to me. In a r/s when the other party is feeling down, u will try to cheer up him...But sometimes i realli dunno how to cheer him up. I'm afraid that by asking him too much he will get irrtated and annoyed..then again..If i dun ask or care..i'm afraid he will think i dun care. So much about me caring for him. Each time when both of us is in bad mood..Its seems to me that i'm cheering him more then he is cheering me..But seriously i dun realli care..cos when he's happy..I will feel better also. But the feeling is realli amazing when he can make me smile again.

We made plans for my bday weekend already..Hee hee..sounds exciting..realli looking forward to it..Tomorrow he's going to work out on his new gym set while i'll set out to planet to do my cardio!!! hee hee...Going to be a good long work out i guess. =) Bed time =)

The Start of Tuesday...

The night ended with a low then a high. I smiled before i slept last night..The message from him kinda let the smile out..ha ha..Woke up feeling a little tired. Went to the gym this morning. But i didn't gym..Attended Body Balance class..

I'm becoming a freak of body balance class right now..Kinda enjoy it alot..My legs..okie...i concluded..its fat..but its not fats right now..kinda harden leh..i think muscles? Hee hee..anyway, the stretching is good. Not too much for me...Kinda feel very relax during the pulls..

Kinda looking forward to the day ahead. Going to meet Heh and Jing for lunch..hee hee..Its the first time since dunno how long ago that we are meeting for lunch again =) this is so amazing. Sel's busy right now..So i guess i got to be understanding and let him concentrate on his work. I'm realli kinda very excited about my bday next week..lots of plans have been made but all not confirm. We managed to take leave on that friday. Still deciding where should we stay put for that weekend...

Anyway, I'm hoping someone gets me the strawberry short cake from baker's inn. Just a small piece will do..hee hee..Been a long long time since i had it..*hint hint* hee hee..okie...also feel like having the stew lamb from secret recipe..and..*knock knock..Sel's in?* i wanna try that yam drink...hee hee.. =) Feeling greedy right now

Okie.. time to start inserting data into the database already =)

Swimming =)

Cool..been a long time since i jumped into the pool again..Been months..i think i kinda stop swimming since i started working..Anyway, went to the pool at suntec. Okie..next time will bring my pals there..Cos no one cares. Jing and i thought each of us needed a pass each. But we actually dun need. We just needed one pass will do and Planet Fitness dun actually record who goes..Anyway, when we reached there, the door was already open. So we didn't actually have to scan the access card.

Anyway, when we reach the pool..kinda cute to see toddles learning how to swim on the other side of the pool with one of their parents..ha ha...the pool isn't realli very big (length). We kinda concluded its about 3/4 of a public pool and its 1.2 m throughout..Kinda like the depth of it. Surprisingly i kinda have the stamina to swim so much. Actually i didn't have enough..but jing was feeling abit cold cos was damm windy..Changing room was not too bad. But i didn't shower there..cos i didn't bring my shower stuffs..So we just dried ourselves..Too lazy to take out of swimming costume..wore back my shorts and tee shirt..and took the lift down to suntec level 3..

I think ppl will think we are freaks..cos i was holding the big white towel from the gym, my tees and short was wet cos of my costume..and walking down suntec like its some HDB area.I didn't even bother to realli dry my hair..was still in that drenched state..hee hee...Went back to the gym and had a nice long shower...

After that we went to a cafe called crosstalked at the basement. Kinda of a nice place. Not very crowded and the pricing is rather resonable..Had ham and cheese toast..hee hee..and a flat white..hee hee...

Another weekend just past..hmm...hopefully next week will be a great week ahead.. =)

Weekends...

Hmm...second day of the week end in a few more mins will be gone. Another day just pass like that. Been enjoying myself since after work yesterday. Evening wasn't extremely wonderful cos the place we went was like super crowded. Suntec..a bad place to viisit on weekends...anyway at least he made my night enjoyablel..

Time always seems to fly when i'm with him..the next moment will be it time to say bye..hiahz..I will just have to say bye sadly =( anyway, i met him for lunch..we went to tampines to have lunch cos he was supposed to meet his bros to go ubin..In the end he didn't go cos the sky was kinda dark..So he accompanied me till the time i was suppose to go to meet my gal frens and loongz..

Hmm..sight reading class was kinda bad today. Realised i have kinda of coordination problem. That again might not be..might be cos my brain can't process the information fast enough. Rhythm work was kinda tough today. After that had the usual choir prac. Learnt a song today...kinda not very diff..managed to get the entire thing fast. Went to beer garden to have dinner. Had my usual.. the meat ball u mian ...hee hee..also just found out that one of my choir pals who works in Mindef kinda work as a network consultant. Had an interesting conversation. He was trying to explain the unix environment to my other choir pals who dun realli know computing stuffs..

Took cab home as usual. Reaching home to find that i'm early today.. No one else was home..yeah..anyway i'm looking forward to the sun and pool tomorrow..kinda been a logn long time since i last swim..and next week...work out week...got to realli keep to my plan..time ticking away fast...

Can't define my mood!

I'm stuck with myself..dunno how am i feeliing right now..the moment i read the documentation, i feel like i dun wanna work..then the moment i stoop reading, i feel like reading. Weird right...sian lor..dunno wat stupid brain i have..Must be feeling cow today..

Hmm..i think must be feeling jeoulous that he went out for such long lunch and still can go shopping..me stuck here doing something which i dun seem to understand. Meet jing for lunch. Had porridge..hee hee...abit full..then bought the traditional type of biscuit..the type which have a colour icing on top..hee hee..nice nice. =) long time never eat...

Somewat time seem to pass super slow today..maybe cos of my irregular mood..Swings right and swings left...an the degree of swing..so irregular..now now..i feel like sleeping...feeling like screaming of loud...feel like swimming...feel like just print the documentation and burn it and drink it..maybe some knowledge will get transfered to my cow brain via the blood stream..or maybe i should have some USB port in my head...plug in the thumb drive with all the necessary information then i know how to do liao...cool right!!! i think i'm mad..ha ha

Should i stop procrastinating? hmm..then again i feel like going on and on and on..then again my fingers are alittle cramp from typing...I think i realli need a catalyst to either make my mood better or make me shout out! I need a life...how abt buying some beer and start drinking like nobody business get drunk and just puke...just get a hell lot of puke all over myself...life's such an ass...

Serious mood swing yeah..ha ha.. la la la.... =)

Its Just Another Day

Hmm..Work seem progressless (came up with this term myself). Environment not set up yet. Not like i dun wanna set up..but i dun even know if its right. Best part...he told me yest to go with him to meet client today cos will be going through some specs for the part which i'm gonna do then wanted me to hear so that hopefully he won't miss out any. Then this morning, i was just telling Al, i think later he will forget to bring me along for meeting. Then, best...he realli left for meeting alone..wahahah..anyway, i think he totally forgot lah..Not too bad..at least i got time to continue figuring out the stupid deployment thing..

Dunno, Al and i was having a causal conversation when we went to buy tea in the late afternoon..i think we kinda have the same thoughts abt my project manager. For me, I feel that its somewat very diff working with him as compared to the other PMs in the company. Not like i've work with all, but at least the other project which i'm still half stuck in i dun feel this way while working with the PM. At least i see a goal, and the PM actually provides a direction to each thing done. For this PM, sad to say...i feel that i see no direction. Not like we dun want the environment to be up..but its like we realli can't figure a way to do it. When tok abt the difficulty faced, all i get back is "I also dunno, just get the environment up". Its been couple of weeks if i know i will already get it up. If he's new to the programs used and the technology used, we are also equally new. Toking about experience, well..he's suerly more experience else he won't be wat he is doing today. We both concluded that he's abit too engross in playing the role of the project manager..

I guess its not only me having a hard time.. My 2 other team mates also.. Cos we are all so unfamilar to the entire thing. To learn it in such a short time, its incredibly hard..sometimes is realli frustrating..But wat to do, still work with a smile right? wats the pt of feeling piss. Sel told me that never let the other party win by feeling piss..i guess its right..why spoil my mood. Smile =)

Hmm..Consolation for the day is to realli have a great dinner. The black vingegar pig trotters was good. But i guess its abit too heaty..ha ha...anyway, we went to lavender to have pig organ's soup..hee hee..then walk home...actually not very far to walk. Maybe cos he's by my side thats why. Okie..tomorrow i'm going to the gym with jing in the morning and he's starting his gym tomorrow morning as well. Hmm..3 months for us to reach our target. Kinda envy that he has a pool near his work place..cos i realli miss swimming in the sun!!!

Anyway, tomorrow is friday and well..kinda looking realli forward to it. The starting of the week end. Hee hee...

Feasting again!

I'm so dead...when feasting again with him..OH MY GOODNESS!!! this is so so so sinful...i should be discipline shouldn't i!!! Where's my aim? where's my goal? can't stand myself...

I guess tomorrow morning i'll have to make my way to the gym and shed out the extra calories..if tomorrow morning cannot wake up..then i guess its lunch time.. Got to be super discipline. No more feasting till friday..Arrgh!!!

Work seems not too bad today. Project timeline is out already..Abit scarry..but i think is managable..*cross everything* Hmm..next time will bring him to this pizza place called Spizza at club street. The ambience there is realli good. Though price is abit ex. But its realli nice in there.. Hee hee...Then next week maybe al and i will got there for lunch..*Drrroooolllliiiinnnnnggggg* Well dun think the ppl in office will be interested..so uninteresting..always amoy and the no quality control wan tan mee..

Anyway...how nice if i'm in like sec sch or pri sch right now..then i can raise hands..or parents write letter that i wanna change place. I dun like to seat where i am now..the stupid big fat monitor's butt from my neighbour sits right into my table space..then now my lap top can only be at that position else will hit that fat monitor butt...then worst still my neighbour keep pushing the monitor further back..leaving me not much space! Office which dun look like an office..drawers cannot be lock..no privacy..sian

okie..enough of complains...hiahz..sleepy leh...Zzzz bug coming liao...

Food Wack!

Kind of sinful today..just yest i weigh myself and lost weight and now i'm again feasting..wahaha...Went to had chicken brayni for lunch today ...not too bad..kinda getting realli sick of the amoy food alerady..time to explore the surrounding food area..but but..somewat ppl in the office kinda so unintersting..just refuse to walk abit further to explore..sianz lor..luckily al dun mind exploring..hee hee

Dinner..hee hee..got very nice food and company..went the the old airport road food center..today i had the rather popular wan tan mee there. Also, had the fired oyster..hee hee..had cravings for chicken wing also..actually he didn't allowed me to eat cos i was having a little of sore throat..but later he bought for me..so nice right =) hee hee...

Tomorrow morning gym..going for body balance class..hee hee..kinda realli like the class lor..okie..bed time..didn't sleep well yest..gonna log off and rest le...

Working Out!

Finally i drag myself to the gym today after attempting for many sundays..Suntec was extremely packed..first regretted taking the bus..cos was caught in some super duper jam...waste time on bus..so pack...air con not strong..Next regret was to alight at the convention hall instead of the next bus stop thinking that it will be cooler to walk in the air con place then under the hot sun..Bad decision..i guess cos of the IT fair..HUMAN JAM!!! totally cannot walk lor..so horrible..sticky ppl all over..

Made my way to the gym..finally peaceful..felt so good to be in non crowded, strong air con place..Bought all my swimming stuffs..but Jing couldn't make it in the end..so i just did usual work out lor..Kinda very encouraged..Cos i weigh myself today!!! I LOST WEIGHT!! cool isn't it...but i think is not enough lor..still got a long long way to go to my aim =) but at least its not so demoralising..

Today kinda did lots of cardio...jog, cycle and did toning to my arms..realised that i haven been toning for some time already..cos couldn't do those weights which i usually did..I guess i got to be more discipline this week..Oats and a piece of fruit for lunch..maybe 3 times a week..then the remaining days..hee hee..eat something nicer...

After that met loongz for dinner...just worked out and ended up in BK...So SINFUL right..hiahz..taught him some things..hee hee..then we went to Pacific Coffee and of course i had my fav...Hazelnut Latte..hee hee..kinda chatted till abt 930 and left for home..hee hee...okie..got to go sleep already..thinking of going morning gym tomorrow =) hopefully can wake up...hee hee...

Yippie!

Had a great day today..Hee hee...he came over to my place in the early afternoon..hee hee...of course spend some nice time together. Kinda hard to spend time together on week days esp both of us are working and by the time we meet kinda late already...

Nuah till like late afternoon..Both damm hungry..so we made our way to Sakae Sushi at Simei..Didn't realli eat much cos we plan to go to the german restaurant to have pork knuckles for dinner..hee hee..He send me to siglap my choir place for my sight reading class and he waited for me lor..so touched..Apparently i skipped choir prac. But well, its our 1 month yesterday and i didn't realli feel i spend enough time with him...so kinda decided to skip it to have dinner with him...

Bought him some pastry from the german restarant..hee he..hope he likes it. Hiahz..anyway, i think i should realli eat lesser liao..and realli go gym and proper discipline on my diet..My aim for my bday..time is ticking away fast and not much progress..I think next week got to really work harder after all the sinful meals today...

After dinner, we decided to take a stroll to parkway. Cool yeah..to walk from siglap all the way to parkway to find that pac coffee closes at 10 PM..so in the end we ended up the the open air starbucks..hiahz..anyway, sat there and chatted.. Okie..i concluded i'm someone who gets jeolous easily..hiahz..

Anyway...all in all..i realli did enjoy myself very much... Hopefully everyday will be like today =) hee hee..

Groovy Friday

Had a great day yesterday. The day started off well.Though i still can't resolve the problem at work, at least managed to get the "warning" to my project manager that i might not be able to do it. Luckily he's in rather good mood yesterday. Having a project manager which plays by his own personal mood is realli kinda bad. At times he's acceptable to listening to the problems faced, at times he just hack care.

Left office early yesterday to meet sel. Its our one month..I know he dun celebrate cos he told me once all these are taboo. Anyway, spend the evening watching "Hitch" at PS..Went delifrance for dinner..I thought it was meant to be a light dinner with supper later on..Hiahz...maybe i should sponge him a little more..should have gone somehwre more ex..hee hee..Its okie lah..

After movie, we came back to our place. Supposed to have prata, but the stall was too packed. So went to seven eleven and we bought our drinks..I bought my all time favourite starbucks mocha frup .. Still remember how much mocha frup i used to drink when doing my final year project..hee hee...Sat at the far end blocks at my estate for a while..

He didn't send me all the way up..cos i guess was late already and dun wanna pay mid night fare..hee hee...anyway...sad to see him go...

Thursday Morning

Procrastinating in the morning again. Can't believe it. The first thing i did in the morning already kind of spoilt my day..WTF! anyway, dun understand why he still eats so much into my mood. Maybe i should take things alittle easier and not demand so much. Then again its hard lor.

For the first time yest he didn't send me home after dinner. I walked myself home from the station. We dun seem as close as before already. Hmm..maybe he's sick so dun wanna spread the flu bug to me? or maybe we are really drifting apart..Watever the case. Just giving myself excuses and reasons.

Kinda a little busy this morning...Will be busier throughout the day i guess cos i have to figure out some things. Those things which i realli detest abt. Thats why i'm procrastinating..but no choice i still have to do it in any case. I realli hate to do all the setting up of the environment lor..then no one to ask..I'm suppose to figure the DAMM BLOODY thing out myself. HATE IT!!!

Have this phobia when it comes to such things. Arrgh..That was also the reason why i didn't chose to do all the chim chim techy modules in school..cos half the time i'll be blur..Its not running away hor..its no interest to such things. Anyway, enough of complains and grumbles..not like if i continue to grumble the things will be done on its own...Guess it time to smile =) again..try to make myself alittle happier. And learn happily (trying hard)...

How Come I Dun Feel Good?

Hmm..something is realli very wrong with me. Wat makes up my mood everyday? Maybe a third goes to him, a third goes to my work and the last third goes to myself. But the third belonging to me doesn't seem to be good. I told myself to be happier today. Maybe just alittle less grouchy..but still..i dun feel good.

Maybe the day didn't start of well..i tried to sound happy. I tried to take as nothing had happen. But all these are just lies to myself..just to make me happier. Lots of qns in my head but i've got no courage to talk abt it. maybe just as well this way. Meeting too many times a week? I guess so..i seem more concern abt him then how he is towards me.

Who doesn't want the other half to care? Am i realli at the expense of him? Maybe i should be a little firmer to myself and to him. Not to sway at decisions. Lots of maybes..Its easier said then done..

Health not getting any better, seems to be gastric. The tightness in the chest doesn't seems to go away. Starting to cough already..This month doesn't seem to be a very good month for me..Its only the beginning and there are already so much hiccups..

Moody...

I'm feeling super moody right now. Lots of things going through my head..It's LOTS and LOTS..Met him for dinner just now. I guess both of us super moody today. Maybe both of us getting sick so abit sians..

Went to Aljunied to meet him. Realised somethings..but i shan't say it. Somethings are just meant to be kept inside. Anyway, i dun seem to understand why planning dinner is so diff. He seems to be super stress and keep thinking where to go and wat to eat. Kinda cute when he thinks..hee hee..

Maybe i shouldn't expect..but then again he shouldn't make my mood worst off. He keep suaning me..calling me by wrong names (dunno delibrately or watever). But i think i have my limts esp when i'm in bad mood. Suaning and teasing well, i dun mind..but sometimes i feel that its too over execcesive..Its fun to lighten the mood. But i'm a person. I do have feelings too. I will also be hurt by words too.

Sometimes things are taken so lightly. Like nothing happened. Well, maybe thats the way guys do things..or rather a cancer..anyway, sometimes i realli hope that he tells me how he actually feels. Everytime we hit this topic, we will chose to run. Cos i guess knowing the truth hurts alot. Sometimes is better to just take each day as it comes. Just hoping for another day.

My body seems to be getting more tired each day. I've tried resting alot over the weekend but it doesn't seem to help. Haven feel realli great for a long time already. Hopefully my body recovers soon...

Lunchie Breakie

Hmm..seems like i'm getting lazier each day..haven been blogging for some time already. Anyway, just got back from lunch. Decided to nuah a while first =) Finally got some things up and working..but have to tweak abit of the codes to suit =(

Hmm..life starting to get busier already. Work work and more work.. Evenings are spend with him. Actually just have dinner only then go home. By the time reach home will be rather late already. But kinda enjoy the evenings though its just for a short while.

Ha ha..just now he said that ppl in love tends to put on weight..but not that i dun wanna eat leh..but i'm suppose to jian fei =) so far so good i guess..been faithful to the gym..hasn't been eating too much..just able to fill my hungryness..hee hee.. Actually eating too much no good either..tends to draw the Zzzz bug.

Okie...time to get back to work already.

So Far So Good

Weekend started well. I went shopping yest and bought myself a pair of track shoes..Well, i paid zero cents for it..FREE...wahahah...Went to Marche to have dinner..I wonder if he will remember wat i like and wat i dun like..Of course i remembered he dun like black pepper sauce, so i requested for something diff..

Had tennis this morning and the sun was so scorching hot..burnt! Came home and he's already on his way to pick me up..so invited him up afterall no one was home..hee hee..naughty me right =P after that we went to parkway to have lunch..tried the new curry rice from yoshinoya..tasted not bad..hee..just that the serving dun realli look as tempting as in the pic. Luckily tasted not bad..

After that, went to the fish shop..browse awhile...then we headed for the siglap starbucks. Spend abt 2 hours there before my sight reading class..He send me there and went to changi with his bro and fren..Hiahz..i think he will reach home very late tonight..anyway..hope he enjoy himself..

It's realli nice to just spend a little time together..Somewat, i'm kinda feeling alittle sad...just a little..cos i think he's realli enjoying himself and never think of me =( hee hee..okie lah..shan't procrastinate..let him enjoy abit of his life..give up alittle more space =P .. Hopefully my trust for me is true and he's not lying. . Anyway, i'm going to sleep soon...i think i'm going to the gym tomorrow for a work out...maybe the trendmills..or the bikes =)

Thinking thinking...

Was suppose to meet him for dinner..but some last minute changes on his side..i went out dinner with heh to PS...and guess wat..i bought a pair of shoes..Alot of qns went through my mind in the afternoon today...Till now, i'm still thinking..but i've decided to pop the qn at him..

He just finished dinner with the client..so now they have to send the client back then he goes home..if too late then guess the qns will be pop some wat later tomorrow. Maybe i shouldn't scare myself by reading too much on the net. But too bad, i've read..now i'm having thoughts...Hopefully he will clear up all my doubts later on..

Though curious, i'm scared. I'm not sure if i'm fit to continue this r/s. Its intersting to find out alot of things..for example to find that i'm so demanding and i'm an attention seeker. I didn't know it myself till i'm in it. Of course alot of other things..however, nothing is safe..it all comes with a price attached..be it mentally or physically..

Lazzie Me..

Not bad an achievement i've made before the end of work today. At least got the things needed for friday done..Guess tmr i'll have time to start researching on the other project before friday..

Starting to feel abit of cramp today. Hmm..abit worried..cos its not very common of me to cramp without the usual flow. Hopefully tomorrow will become usual. Suppose to make my way to the sunect gym for abs sculpts today..but didn't make it..in the end, ended in Ichiban Bonshi at great world...hee..Guess got to sleep and wake up early tomorrow morning to go work out abit..

But but..my bruises are so bad...can't wear shorts..else ppl will think i'm like beaten by someone..anyway, the medicine which i applied on the bruises are hopeless..maybe just rubbing will be better..at least the bruise dun change colour till such aweful colour...

Hmm..was considering of waking up earlier..then just ride on the bike at home. Afterall the bike is there...can just work out on it for 30 mins then shower..then off to work..sound great right? hee hee..I'm just lazy to travel lah..heng the gym is near my work place..at least more motivation...

Okie..i guess its almost bed time..just had 2 cold prunes..tomorrow stomach hugging day.. =(

Breakie..

Giving myself a short 15 mins break before continuing..finally i see light after trying the entire evening and this morning..hopefully things will be smooth till fri morning =)

Had a rather good sleep yest night..didn't realised that it rained..heavily? i'm not certain..hee..slept too soundly..guess i didn't have a good rest for the past few nights..Prob my body can't take it anymore and i just had to rest. Couldn't wake up this morning..had to pull myself out of bed. Was still yawning after morning shower..
I was so blur..forgot to brush my teeth then my mum said..how come today so fast? then i think think...Opps..i forgot my teeth! wahahah..cannot make it hor..

Must be last night i never brush teeth then went to bed..i brush everynight except last night cos came back from dentist..so sparkle clean le..no need..Sel finially went home early for once..we met for dinner..then as usual, he has to upset me by saying somethings...then send me to the dentist and off he went..=)

Chat online with him for awhile..but he was so busy with his things..was toking to WL..helping him out with his sch work abit.. =) The night ended with a good note. Didn't realli sleep that early though..hee..

Time to go back to work already..hopefully can finish by today and early..then i can make it to the gym later. =)