Crying the night through.

I thought i was fine..i thought by leaving my hp on my table away from my bed i will be fine. Yet..i keep anticipating for a call or a sms. I waited and waited. I wasn't in deep sleep..The moment i closed my eyes..i will just realised that "Its Over". I've got to let go. But its so difficult.

I cried throughout the night..tears just streamed down..i couldn't control. I went out of my room to the living room. I sat on the sofa hugging my bloster and crying. I got a message from him like almost 4 am in the morning telling me he's home already and going to sleep. I dun understand why he isn't hurt. I dun understand why he dun feel the pain. Issit because he dun at all feel for me? i guess so..He told me that he's sentimental. But he never seem to remember things that we did. Here i was crying and yet he was outside happily enjoying himself. I can't blame and i can't complain. My life picture is wat i paint by myself.