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The story continues. I'm sorry folks for venting my anger on you ppl last night. Prob its the time of the month again? I dun know..can't bother to know. Anyway yah..I know its wrong of me to take u ppl out verbally cos of my bad mood.

I've never curse and swear so much in my entire life. No one have ever tested my tolerance and attitude level to this extend. I will say one thing. I think my mind is protecting myself. To automatically change into the attitude mood when toking to him. Its so scarry cos i didn't realise i do have the ability to do such a thing. And the next moment i can happily chat with my beloved neighbours. So ironic isn't it.

Its so dreadful to wake up in the morning realising that i have to come to office to see a F up face attitude person. Worst of all..to communicate with this F up face attitude person. I dun label my frens or colleagues..but he just won himself that label..Congrats to his award! I just can't help it anymore.

I'll endure Endure ENDURE...Why? Lets just say half of me wants to get out of this shit hell. But the other side of me can't do it cos there are ppl in the office whom i do really respect and i dun want to create a mess and disappoint them. These ppl are really very nice and good ppl who lead me to where i am right now. Know them since my uni days when i was just an intern. They gave me the chance and opportunity..So i'm really grateful to them. So right now..just have to 忍..swallow everything that comes my way..