Expections? Expecting?

The day ended not too bad yesterday. At least i got wat my aim was up. Was suppose to go to the gym this morning but decided to give it a miss cos i was feeling tired.

For the past few mornings i was expecting some things. But it never came true. Cos the thing never did manifest. I start to miss more and more. I'm scared that i'll miss too much till a stage that i get strange and weird again. I tried telling myself that its normal and i shouldn't be over possssive and over demanding. But sometimes i just needed some.

I was toking to lynnnie yesterday afternoon..and she said that i lack self confidence. How true it is. Cos of somethings that i discover another side of myself..a side which is so possesive..a side which is so scarry...a side which i never know i had it in me..Lynnie said that i'm over demanding. She tried puttin sense into my head..she tried knocking nonsense out of me but some wat it didn't realli work.

I sense things are changing and it seems to me that its changing for the worst. Things are no longer the same.. I tried hard..but none seems easy.. Lets just say i'm scared. Another part of me had taken over. Its a part of me too scarry to even recongnise.