I waited...and waited...

It was an aimless day. As usual, my faithful body alarm woke me up at 7 am. I laid on the bed waiting for time to pass. I am, yes i am, suffering from a very bad mood swing. I really had to supressed it with my mind cos i know how much this mood swing will affect him. Its one of the few times i tried to calm myself, to sweet talk myself. But its really worning me out. Like a dormant volcano, i feel like just erupting.

Like a dispatched, i did what i promised to do in the morning. I took the NEL line to renew the parking for his bike. I came back home with nothing to do in mind. I rotted and waited for his return from the Ubin island with his colleagues. As expected, i knew he will be late and indeed, i was proven right. My mood swing made my worn out mind thought through some things. Things which will not come about in beautiful moments. Ugly side i will say.

I took a long nice shower as time approaches 4 pm. I grumbled to myself about the poor time management he have. 4 pm to reach mainland. I think that will never happen. I'll prob think 5 earliest. For a moment, i asked myself. Am i supposed to tolerate and to be more understanding? But another side of me battled the answer YES. Simply because, it clearly state to me that both party have to be understanding towards each other. Its always not fair for one party to give in and wait. Like and endless wait.

So i dropped the sms on him. Though he mentioned something sweet for this evening BBQ, i was somewat still displeased. Its all about time management. Its something which i really hated from the start especially when he's out with his colleagues and friends. Because the feeling of taken forgranted is so strong.

I do believe all relationships have its downside and is how both party wants to tackle and face the problem. I reminded him last night and he said i was a nag. Maybe indeed i was. Next time, i'll just keep quiet. Time will prove things to me. Repeated incidents sets a strong image in my mind. Two consequences to it. Either to get used to it? or the image just gets worst and in the end, its no longer bearable. Well, why wait util that stage? that's what i will asked myself. But really, it takes two to clap.

Well, the evening awaits me. Will it be a beautiful one? or will it be a explosive eruption? I dunno. All i know is, i'm just tired from the wait. But i'm just too lazy to do something productive.