Mixing around.

Seems like i'm still harbouring the same character since i was a kid. I've never been the center of attraction among my frens, i've never really have good frens in school and i dun really mix around. I just feel uncomfortable with ppl whom i dun knoe.

Today, there's farewell lunch again. Lets see, this is the 5th farewwell lunch since i came on 9 jan. Anyway, we went to the pizza place behind. Feels alittle like spizza, but it doesn't taste as nice. Felt weird with the company. Its the kind of feeling i felt when i was a kid, a teenager. Everyone chatting and there i am, sitting quietly. Just feel so inferior with them. They discuss things which i'm aliened about because i'm rather new here. Just feel so left out. I feel so much more comfortable if i dun go lunch with the enitre dept but just with my lunch mates.

Anyway, i just dun like the culture here at all. Things are so different. I never attend much of their functions or outings and i intend to keep that way. Just finish my allocated work and go off. I dun want to get involved with politics in here. I am actually thinking of resigning and take a break. I guess i didn't have a good break the last time when i left my old company. And at the same time, think of what i really want to do. Sigh. Feel so demoralised now. Just dun feel like doing anything.

Terrible terrible mood