Maybe i should just leave

It's chinese new year. But it's another sad new year. First was my boyfriend and now my parents. I'm so sick and tired to hear all the shouting and quarrelling at my parents end. I'm so sick and tired to here my BF this way..in the depress mood. I'm really considering a break up. If that happens, i'm moving out to stay on my home and be alone.

I thought our relationship went well. But as things progresses, i feel that our r/s is getting weaker each day. Never had we quarrelled so much before. Tolerance may be should be the word. But i just can't. I hate his depression. It spoils my day. I hate myself for not being able to cheer him up. Maybe it's his family problem and my family problem which make us in this state. I'm not happy. I don't think he is either.

As the day passes, for some reason, i feel that we are not compatible at all. We seem to be on both extreme ends. Balancing is so difficult. I want someone who is able to share my troubles and to work together. But i don't find comfort from him. Instead i have to comfort myself and pick him up. We should be working as a couple, but i feel that we are so individualistic now. I feel so sad.

Let's just give myself a couple months more to see how things turn out to be. But i'm mentally prepared for the worst. To just give up everything in life and to be alone.

Where am i?

I'm just being too caught up at work. . .

I'm just trying hard to influence anything that comes my way.

I'm trying hard ease of the load.

I'm trying hard not to mess up my life.

I'm trying hard not to pressure the ppl around me.

I'm trying hard to cool off in the meeting.

I'm trying hard to learn to listen to comments.

I'm trying hard to be more open to ideas.

I'm trying hard to spend more time with my love ones (esp my little fur)

I'm trying hard to enjoy my life.

I'm trying hard to learn to relax.

I'm trying hard to physco myself that life is good..i'm on the right track..

I'm trying hard to tell myself to stop worrying.

I'm really trying..till it's driving me a little tispy.